its been five months.

i just read jennette's twitlonger to one of her fans. i will talk about friendship. i have been through a lot of this friendship thingy. fyi, i dont believe in best friends. until now i dont find anyone that i can trust. sometimes being alone will make you see everyone's immaturity. i always ask myself what did i do until i feel that i dont deserve to be happy. i have problem with my life lately. i got no one that i can let everything out. it feels like your heart is trap in dark place.

when i feel a little bit upset, i will remind my heart to ignore and keep ignore. someone you consider as friend and they dont, you can just let them go eventho you cant. one thing, i love to avoid myself from a group of friends. ok i hate this kind of friendship so much. i know that you can do everything with friends but once they backstab you. you will regret as hell. you will ask yourself why why and why. i tell you because ive been through this motherfcker stuffs.

everyday i wonder if my happy luck will come soon or i dont deserve to be happy. i be strong for three years and im trying to stay. well fuck my life. i'm depressed. thanks to jennette mccurdy for her words. i love jennette so much. ok guys, be strong. being alone is bored but it will be good sometimes.

oh yeah, i went to universal studio singapore last saturday. its quite bored because too many people there. and btw, i met pieka and syahir ystrdy awwww! lol calm down. fml i still feel disappointed that im not gonna meet taylor swift this 11th june. ugh ok have fun everyone! bye